I'm so upset today. ; ;

Cut because it's a bit silly, but I've been on my edge for the past few weeks and I think someone finally pushed me off the cliff.


Class rep elections was today, and I've ran for it quite a few times and lost- I lose a lot, so I'm never upset over that. I knew I wasn't going to win, but there's nothing wrong in trying, so I typed up a speech.

Call me stupid, but I didn't vote for myself- I voted for my acquaintance because she had a really good speech, and she's a very good candidate. And I just have never voted for myself ._____.

So the results came up on the board, and I already knew I didn't win, but I wanted to see how many votes I got. Losing isn't a big deal to me, I wasn't upset at all, but... I looked down the list and I saw that my name wasn't even on the results, which meant that I didn't get any votes.

I was, and still am upset that no one voted for me. Not one person. ; ; I'll be honest, I almost cried in class, as silly as it seems. I tried to forget about it, but some guy decided to laugh at me about it and at that point I wanted to go hide in a corner forever.

And then at the end of the day I was yelled at by my mother on being fucking inconsiderate and how she can't wait to kick me out of the house.

By the time I got home I just threw myself onto my bed and cried for a good hour and got a headache. I managed to sleep for half an hour, feel a bit better, and shower.

I should be doing homework, but honestly, I really just want to go upstairs into my comforters and read fic. :|

I have so much fucking work, and at the end of every school day I have a horrible headache and feel exhausted. Not once in a while, every. single. fucking. day. I actually started getting my headache in the morning today and it's still here. I can't even rest on the weekends, I still have a shit ton of work- so I never truly have a day when I can rest and not feel anxious about all the work I have to do. And even when I finish my work, I feel anxious because I feel like I forgot something.

I find I can't lean over on anything or I get chest pains. My hand is a lot better, but it sometimes aches at the end of the day.


On a more girly note, Jill Stuart's blush from their Patisserie Collection it's really pretty ;A;
Reika from frontrowbeauty.com did a review on it and it looks like a really pretty berry toned pink ;A; I also saw swatches of the other blush from this collection, Fig Tart, and it's very lovely as well. I'd love to get one of these, but I'm pretty sure they're not available, and it's $50.


Edit: picture removed because I am unauthorized to use the picture, my deepest apologies.